Emotional.
You tell a guy one thing, hoping that they would do the opposite. Just because your in hopes of them figuring out that whats right, is what you feel like doing rather then what your told.
It’s complicated for my boyfriend to sometimes wrap his mind around that. But we just got into a really big argument. And i told him to leave.. And he did.
Living a good 45 minutes away, we barely see each other as is now that school has started. So when we do, i cherish every moment of it. I hate when i start arguments, but one thing lead to another and things blew up. He says he doesn’t know how to say sorry anymore, but sometimes i don’t need a sorry.. I just need him to prove that he cares cause when we fight i always feel like he doesn’t. It really hurts me that he won’t even argue with me just to stay but rather take what i say and leave. Like that. Makes me feel like he won’t even fight for our relationship.. I know all in all this argument is really unnecessary, but sometimes i just feel like i need that reassurance that he’s going to be there for me no matter what..
Even when i’m yelling, crying, laughing, even ignoring him.. I just need to know that he would stand up to anyone, even myself to say and do what’s right. But in the end he just left because i wasn’t being myself.
I haven’ wrote on this thing in forever, though no one would read this.. It made me feel like a burden or some parts of that burden has been lifted off my chest.
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