BravoEmily.

Side note; Friends that aren’t friends

So today it was brought to my attention that I’ve lost a good amount of friends due to a somewhat bad habit of mine? What you ask..

Well, during lunch today I was kind of in an awkward situation with a friend that i used to be really good friends with. So i told one of my really good friends. (Which i know i can tell her pretty much anything.) I pointed out the kid that i used to be friends with and told her the story of how i knew them before i moved to this school. And not to mention how we would used to talk non stop for one summer and now? Well let’s just say our friendship (If you would even call it that) is now non existent. Not even a single “Hello” or wave, which saddens me to think “How the hell did it get to this point? Where we don’t even look in each other directions.” In the end my friend mentioned to me that “She sees a lot of this happening in my friendships and how i better not do this to her.” Haha I love her.

But yeah.. I’ve realized that the people that I used to be able to call “Friends” aren’t who they used to be.. Not because of who they are but what I’ve done to them. I came to a conclusion or a diagnosis of why this keeps on happening to me.

I distant myself from people.. Which ultimately landed me sometimes feeling lonely or missing the people I once were so close with. As some of them drifted off without any drama. Some didn’t. I know I’ve created some drama here and there but at least i know that i was able to stand up for myself

With all this said; I’ll be trying to mend the relationships that I have lost and may somewhat be reconciled. And as for friendships that I’ve completely destroyed, I am truly sorry..

I guess we can say that we know who are true friends are. As for me, I’ll never allow myself to destroys those.